It was supposedly the last week for my round’s re-edit, so Miss AP can finally kiao kah and happily eat her ice-cream on my comfy sofa! :P (Switched to the bigger suite because my cozy suite’s air-con is not working~)
Director’s treat on the last day~! I was so surprised when he invited me for dinner last week and I even told him that he’s the first director to treat me! Haha! So honoured, even though it’s his habit of treating the crews after wrapping a project ((:
The glutton AP ordered so much food to try even though they just had lunch 2 hours ago! We went for an extra early dinner because we had nothing to do while exporting…haha! Thank goodness I did not have my lunch!
Oh did I mention that the siao char boh is back in team ever since I was back from my trip?! So S.H.Y has finally reunited again and we would be having our first audition! More details to be revealed only if we passed the audition…HAHA!
Finally tried NamNam with PPGs! Not bad! Now I can understand why there’s always a queue~
The same place but a different lunch! I think I have mentioned before that I am a fan of Quesadilla and I definitely did not expect to have it here! Super niceeeeee mushroom soup too! *Slurppppp!*
Had a long rant and I guess it was an accumulative one that I have been 憋-ing in my 肚子, because I had no one to rant to. So the moment I had the chance to rant, they all came out all at once, like a volcano eruption!
Quite a chill week at work before our next new drama starts, but not so chill on my personal schedule~ Had so many meetings to attend; upcoming MINDS outing meeting, formations meeting T.T
Didn’t expect that I would have time to catch Avengers but I did! Witty, funny, cool, handsome; I like it (:
Off for MINDS and the comm were teaching the residents the dance steps for the upcoming camp, so now I have another dance to learn! FAINT~ I hope I don’t get confused ._.
Late night cycling with buddy after hanging out with the volunteers and it was such a breeze cycling with my new bike! Yes! I’ve gotten a new bike as I wished for because buddy decided to grant my wish as a belated birthday gift! Hehe! He also got one for himself so that we can go on more frequent cycling sessions together now! :D
Reported early as usual to revise the dance steps and it’s the third week but I’m still not 100% familiar with the steps! Felt really, really stressful to dance in front of the trainers and it just felt worse than our usual audition, which has more people dancing together!
I wasn’t sure of the steps at some point and it doesn’t help that I was feeling so, so, so nervous with all the eyeballs on me. Carol 老师 came to talk to me after that followed by Steven 老师, and they both encouraged me to be more confident. I felt so damn like crying.
They said that I actually know the steps but just lack the confidence, but how am I supposed to feel confident in something that I am not confident in?! Argh. Then Steven 老师 added that at least he can see that I am trying very hard, unlike some others, and that made me wanna cry more T.T
I am touched by them always being so nice to me and the more I feel like I have disappoint them. Like I just can’t catch up with the others and not able to dance in my own world like they do. I will always be conscious of myself when I’m dancing and doubting myself with the steps!
I am someone who is always checking if there’s chilli stuck on my teeth, so there’s just no way I can not be conscious of what others’ thinking or whose eyes are watching :( That’s why I can never dance freely when I am in the “limelight“, knowing that the eyeballs are easily narrowed down at me and my mistakes.
So while everyone seems to be dying to be in the core group, I am dying to stay in the mass group because when I was dancing outside with the mass, I could do it! That’s why I didn’t even bother learning the core group dance with the rest because I know it will only confuse me further when I’m not even 100% confident with my current. And Steven 老师 finally understood why I said I don’t wanna be in the limelight because he saw my performance outside. It’s only when I’m with the rest then I can do my best.
I am starting to catch the dance more and just wanna keep dancing with the music! I was even surprised when 2 hours passed so soon and it was already dinner time! Thought I could practise more~ Hope I can still remember the steps next week as well! >.<
I was supposed to be not hungry! But I ended up finishing the carrot cake x.x