It’s finally the big day of the year again but as usual, I don’t really feel the excitement, or rather, the fact it’s THE day already. I usually feel it only after that, but this year I kinda feel happier that it’s over than feeling 依依不舍～ Guess the aunties have really tortured me too much that I can’t wait to wash my hands off them…haha!
Wanted to have a private photo session with costumes on but this man was sooooo busy every year that I had to literally drag him and personally escort him out of the hall! -_- If I don’t do that, our turn will never come because the queue is endless! 😡
To make up for the unsatisfactory shot last week 😛
With JJ – our intern of the year! Although I always bully him and he always nags when I ask for safety pins or hair pin from him, he would always help me in the end, even for under-table matters! Couldn’t be more thankful to have him this year! (:
Another great help of ours – YZ! The one who has to handle the shitty registration and signing out process every week
and also a shitty boss. I do hope she leaves for a better and happier environment because she deserves better for her hard work!
Although I complain about my group members (the aunties) like every week and I also ranted about how much I dislike the war zone amongst the 3 of us when doing the formations, I still can’t be more thankful that I picked this lot 4 months ago which landed me in this group and under the guidance of Lily again!
She has been the most patient mentor ever and if there’s one thing that I really admire her for, it would be her tolerating skill – something which I haven’t managed to pick up from her. It’s like I have never seen her really angry before.
I mean there were also times when she ranted to me about this and that participant, but she would smile or laugh as she rant agitated-ly. I don’t know how she does that, she’s just agitated yet able to treat it as a joke each time…hahaha! I guess that’s how she managed to survive being a group leader for so many years (:
I’m glad that I managed to say my words of gratitude to her at the very end of the day before she left. I told her that she has been really nice to me these 2 years when I’m under her and I am very lucky, but I am unhappy working for whoever up there. We ranted about the times we both got shouted at for nothing, but she still put on a smile again when she was ranting. I, on the other hand, feel that I can’t smile if I were to continue~ Guess I am really someone who 把喜怒哀乐都挂在脸上。
Finally managed gather my 17 beauties from my triangle group for a photo-shoot! It’s not easy for this shot because every time we found 1 person, the other goes missing…haha! Glad that I managed to take these shots with them and passed them the brownies! (:
Did not really manage to say everything that I wanna say (because it was too hot outside) but I think my “I would be happier if I only have to manage the 17 of you” kinda summarised everything…haha! Though I really wanted to express how thankful I am to have them always being so cooperative and understanding towards me.
You know, part of the reason I don’t wanna continue this role anymore next year is because I don’t see why I wanna waste time on people who are obviously not here for the same reason as me. People who are here for other superficial reasons like photos and free food, or even media attention. People who are here not because they purely enjoy performing. People who think that it’s okay to make mistakes because it’s the fun that matters more.
But these bunch of ladies here, no matter how much I nag or pick on their mistakes during performance (I am quite strict with that), they would never get angry but worked hard to put up a good show instead. These are the people that I can really feel the passion and whom I know I have not wasted my time and effort on! ❤
I don’t know how the show went because I still haven’t watched it yet, but I heard it was quite screwed, especially the last formation… Slightly disappointed, but I have also learnt to accept that what happened has happened, these are things that you can’t change or control. Oh well~ Might as well enjoy the party after that!
Attempted a group jump shot but somehow only I was in focused and only I managed to jump! LOL. Actually Eric also jumped (at the extreme right) but he got cropped off by the photographer…hahahahaha!!! My legs are up ahhh, those are not my legs~
Guests of the week!!! Okay, technically they are not my guests but they just happened to have the actual day tickets! Happy to see my Muay Thai partner again after so long! Definitely miss kicking those pads! And he’s always so sweet to remember to take a photo with me after the show! 😀
The annual tradition of Polaroid shots! Thank you Lyn for remembering! I had so much to remember this year that I forgot to bring my camera…
A pity we did not manage to take individual Polaroid shot with our 牛粪 because the post-party was damn short this year 😦 Didn’t help that Eric was nagging and nagging at us to go back. Sigh. Not like we can re-take it again any other year with the same costumes and setting…
Luckily still have the usual group shots! ❤
Candid shot of me teaching her how to pose…LOL! As usual she was pretty lost…hahahahahaha!!!! Thanks to Leng Leng who came along with us (actually we dragged her along) and took these epic shots for us! 😆
Had our very last Starbucks session at Kallang Leisure and look who are here! The 2 mighty NDP fans! They were here for the fireworks…haha!
Finally completed my 4 races!!!!! Thanks to whoever who helped me achieve this accomplishment in just 6 years 😛 2 of the years were non-racial costumes, which means I was really in a different ethnic group each year…hehe! Might not have been the nicest costumes, but it’s an achievement and milestone for me! (((((:
I don’t know how should I end this off…hmmmmm. Although it hasn’t been an exactly happy year, I still appreciate this journey and the things I have learnt. I may not be the most tolerant person or one with the best temper, but my tolerance has definitely been trained and increased in “capacity“. There are things that I would have done if it was the past me, but I did not, because I have learnt to endure.
But there are still things that are beyond my endurance level and I’m not giving up, I just refuse to be a puppet anymore. I’m just accepting the fact that my minimal effort is not helping as much as I hope to, and that there are other things that are worth more of my time and effort, including bonding with my real friends and focusing on my own performance.
I might have been ranting every single week, but it’s not that nothing good has happened at all this year. There are still good memories, fun moments, but it’s just that I am someone who rant a lot. Like a lot. Even like when I had a stressful day at work, I need to rant out all my displeasure to someone. I don’t like to bottle things up and explode all at once. I need to type it somewhere no matter anyone’s reading or whoever’s reading, and this is my space to do so.
There are a lot of drama happening during these 4 months plus of training. At the start, I try to resolve them. At the end, I only try to put a stop to them.
I have watched group members turned from good friends to enemies – left me thinking about it for the next 3 days because it’s a pity. I actually felt sad for them. I do hope at the end of all these they would be back to friends again. I spoke to them privately because I do hope my words to them have helped to resolve the problem, even though it might not remove the scars in them. My point is I do have feelings for these people. They are still part of my group and whatever happen to them would inevitably affect my feelings. But I turned a cold shoulder to them in the end… And I regret not salvaging this friendship for them, because my feelings for all these people have gradually diminished over time and incidents.
I am sorry that I did not jot down the sweet memory when a participant shared her really nice homemade pandan cake with me, or when another bought us snacks from her hometown. I am sorry that I was too busy ranting and forgot to blog about the more meaningful incidents. I am sorry that I was too caught up with my anger and did not give credit and attention to those who have been really obedient and nice to me. I hope people forgive me if I haven’t done a good job, or if I haven’t been a good AGL. But I hope they know that I have tried my best. I hope they remember that I am a part of them too, that I am just a participant, like them too.